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[helpdesk_hero]

This is David Alleyne, I'm not available at the moment.
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[helpdesk_hero]

[Of course they were. So he was trying to be careful.]

Strongest over the counter you can legally get your hands on. And I'll send the list of coffees I like.

How are you so amazing? This all sounds good right now. My other advice is buy a drop cloth for painting. Mostly because it's only ever going to have existed in packaging, it would give me something to lay on or sit on.

[portolan]

[ he adds a response about David not being properly cared for in the past but deletes it. That may be too sore right now. Even if Balthier thinks it’s true. ]

I probably need your prefered coffee making device as well. Will pick up a drop cloth.

Does this count as your having a drawer at my house?

[ if he knew what emoji were he may have used one there for time but he doesn’t so ]

[helpdesk_hero]

[Yeah, that would be a serious cutting remark there.]

I'll message you with details of a good french press. I prefer a different method, but it's the easiest option.

Recyclable or compostable cups and plates and the like.

No, mon bijou, it doesn't. But it's so considerate that it should be considered a relationship milestone.

[portolan]

You aren’t required to pick the easiest option.

Have I told you your insistence on semantics is endearing? To which I’ll add that’s fair because it’s going to be an armoire shelf and a kitchen cupboard.

[ But the relationship milestone comment makes him beam, maybe more than it should. ]

[helpdesk_hero]

It's easier when I'm asking you to brew something for me.

Listen, if you get to the point where you feel comfortable with sharing a space with me that isn't for emergency treatment of my specific ills, I'll say yes. In case you ever want to ask.

[portolan]

[ he’s not going to ask today because that feels like something he wants to be sweet about. But he appreciates the indication it’s welcome. ]

You should know you constantly make my heart race even if I don’t always say it.

[helpdesk_hero]

[Be as sugary as you wish with it, David won't call you a sap.]

That sounds like an arrhythmia, dear.

[portolan]

Never heard of that being specific to only one stimulant.

Don't deflect my compliments, dear. I'll just have to shower you with more.

[helpdesk_hero]

I don't think I'd mind that. Being showered with your attentions.

[portolan]

I've held the wrong piece ransom.

You get more compliments if you accept them.

[helpdesk_hero]

Oh? What else would you ransom?

I think I'll get compliments whether I accept them or not. But I will try to accept them. For you.

[portolan]

Do you have pirate fantasies involving me, David? Am I kidnapping you or rescuing you?

[ He's absolutely going to push him on accepting those compliments though. ]

[helpdesk_hero]

...

You're putting ideas in my head.

[portolan]

I expect to hear them when you've formulated them properly.

[helpdesk_hero]

I just want that. I didn't even realize it.

[portolan]

You have to be more specific.

[helpdesk_hero]

I've never considered roleplaying in the bedroom.

[portolan]

[ oh! ]

If it's something you want to try, I of course will be happy to oblige you.

That does not mean you have to, or that you have to like it if you decide to try it.

[helpdesk_hero]

I wouldn't even know where to begin with that.

[portolan]

Usually with a character.

Now I'm just teasing. Honestly, it's something I did more when I didn't particularly like the other person than not. But it can be fun. Not that we are lacking any amount of fun in the bedroom. You are exquisite.

[helpdesk_hero]

Oh. If it would connect you to memories of those you don't like, I'll hold back.

[portolan]

I don't ever want you to hold back.

[ The truth is, replacing bad memories with good is a lot more healing than avoiding them. But he doesn't know how to say that without feeling...pathetic. ]

[helpdesk_hero]

I don't know how to do any of that, if I'm honest. Learning what does and doesn't work for me is... hard. Too many echoes of other people and their desires to always be sure of my own.

[portolan]

I’m not pushing. Or judging. Just letting you know if you want to try something I’m generally going to be willing. Even if you don’t know what you’re doing or if you like it. Maybe especially then. You should get to explore and learn for yourself.

I worry constantly I’m just the product of other desires forced on me. I think you’d tell me that’s silly. And before you tell me it’s not the same, I think it is. We all are blurry around the edges of where we end and the world’s hold on us begins.

[helpdesk_hero]

Honestly, the roughness we got up to was the only thing I was sure of. The bit of praise was... jarringly wonderful to me. There is so much I don't understand of myself in the end.

If there are things you want to explore with me, I'll welome it.