The Day After - For WearingtheStars

[helpdesk_hero]

He knows it the second he wakes up. Because there's this void in his head. Can't explain it, can only say it's wrong. As deeply wrong as anything has ever been in his life. Of course the only reason he even woke up was because of all of the shouting. The fear and the pain. And David swallows hard because he's reaching and there's nothing.

Which is what gets him grabbing at his jeans and a t-shirt, throwing himself out of the room, barely even acknowledging Josh as the gold-skinned idiot wakes up. No, his concern is the room across the hall. Is pushing past people so he can pound on it. Billy.

"Billy!" he shouts through the door. He should have fought harder when Emma found out they were dating. He shouldn't have let people change their rooms. He should be in there, knowing if Billy is feeling this same emptiness too.

An emptiness that can't just be David, because he thinks he just saw a girl that used to have purple skin and horns walk by. Without either of those.

"Billy, open up! Dammit, Jay, if you're in there, open the door, I need to see Billy."

Comments

[wearingthestars]

So don't-

[Billy tries to sound as sure as he images David to be, turning and pushing to work David's shirt off, breath short. There's a looming threat, a ticking clock that pushes him to move, and he wills it to leave them be.]

[helpdesk_hero]

[Well then, he's not going to. David reaches up, curls an arm around his boyfriend, and rolls the guy. With Billy pinned below him he strips off his shirt and tosses it aside before leaning in to kiss his neck and chest.]

[wearingthestars]

[He laughs and looks up at David with that contented eager expression he's sure has become very familiar to him, sighing softly and letting his eyes fall closed. He finds David with blind hands, tracing over the muscles of his back.]

[helpdesk_hero]

We still green?

[He is a bit busy kissing down Billy's stomach.]

[wearingthestars]

U-uh huh. Super green.

[Billy's breath catches a bit, and he flushes, trying to keep his hips from arching to wantonly, eyes blinking open again to follow after David.]

[helpdesk_hero]

You'll let me know if that changes, right?

[Because his lips are almost flirting with Billy's belly button now.]

[wearingthestars]

Promise.

[Billy nods, and presses his lips together to try and quiet himself, groaning softly.]

[helpdesk_hero]

[Sad that it's got to be quiet but he gets why. He leans in to start kissing his stomach, low at the edge of his pants. And... And he reaches down to palm at him.]

[wearingthestars]

[There's a definite shudder in Billy's breath, but the way he arches into the touch suggests it's very much a welcome one. Excitement and nerves make the static feeling mount in his fingertips, and he has to focus to quell it back down.]

[helpdesk_hero]

[Okay, this is... this might be happening. David licks his lips hand his hands go to Billy's fly, ready to undo it. And his eyes go up to meet Billy's. Was this okay?]

[wearingthestars]

[It really might. Billy hardly dares to breathe, and he flushes when David meets his eye, but smiles and gives a silent nod. He's ready. They're ready.]

[helpdesk_hero]

[They're definitely ready for something, and right now, it's this. His fingers are quick, undoing the button and the zipper. This is happening. It's happening. David's heart is racing.]

[wearingthestars]

[Billy's fingers curl by his lips to shield his expression, hearing his pulse echo with each beat, sure he's never been so nervous, but then he's felt like that with each first.]

David-

[helpdesk_hero]

Yeah. I know.

[He swallows hard and then starts tugging at the pants. Come on, help him get these off.]

[wearingthestars]

[Lifting his hips, Billy reaches to help push them off his hips, feeling as though his hands are shaking, though really there's very little movement.]

...You green too? [He only thinks to ask belatedly, now that they're almost all the way into this..]

[helpdesk_hero]

Green?

[His boxers are blue today? What? But yeah, he's shaking too, so excited.]

[wearingthestars]

Good?

[He corrects with a flush and a hushed laugh, not sure if David's teasing or he really can't pull off David's words at all.]

[helpdesk_hero]

Oh. I... I got confused. Too excited. Yeah, green. We're good.

[He moves aside to help start to take Billy out of his pants.]

[wearingthestars]

[He laughs, and it eases some of his nerves, smile spreading over his face. Much as he imagines these things to go perfectly, like some movie, real life is never like that.]

Fuck I love you.

[helpdesk_hero]

[And their lives especially aren't like that.]

I know. Do... you want my pants off?

[wearingthestars]

[Very rarely. They get all the horror and drama of a piece of fiction though.

Billy nods, sure despite how shy he is. Who knows when they'll get the chance to be alone like this again?]

Seems fair.

[helpdesk_hero]

[David has never been so quick, or so clumsy, trying to take his pants off before. It’s luck that he doesn’t fall off the bed in the process. He does almost hall off his boxer-briefs by mistake. And it’s quite clear with this layer of clothing off that he’s quite hard right now. It’s bad enough that there is an obvious damp spot at he front of his briefs.]

[wearingthestars]

[Billy's smile grows all the more fond at that over eagerness, and he allows his gaze to run down, as though he isn't quite sure he's allowed still, teeth catching at his lower lip.

And it's not as though David has anything to be ashamed of. Besides, Billy's in much the same state, hips giving a small, reflexive rock against the air, and he whines faintly at the sight of him.]

[helpdesk_hero]

[And it’s only now, like this, that David realizes something. And feels super self-conscious.]

Billy, I... I’m not Jewish.

[wearingthestars]

...I am aware of that, yes. [Billy half teases, and then after a beat realizes what David might really be getting at.]

Oh. Uh...that's...that's fine? [He's never really thought about that before, and he wonders now if he ought to feel self-conscious too.]