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Posted by

helpdesk_hero

Clean-up. As if it's ever so easy as just saying we're moving on from the horrible idea that derives entirely from how much he loves you, Laurie. How much we both do. If I thought for a moment it'd get you back home, I'd consider it too.

So yes, we do hold it on ourselves to some degree.

Posted by

fridgeflower

I know there's really no way to convince you to do otherwise. I just don't want the desperation to define us or to lead us somewhere bad, and I don't want you to hurt and blame yourselves if it's just not possible.

I love you, too. I love you both so much. I promise that that's enough.

Posted by

helpdesk_hero

I promise I am doing a bit better on the taking care of my mental health and not being too crazed over the pain.

I'm glad. I love you too. You're one of my best friends, and I want you to have the chance at your life. Your happiest life. Know I will find any way I can to support it.

Posted by

fridgeflower

Thank you.

[ That's all very... therapy-esque, and she's worried that it's more rote than anything. Not that she doubts his sincerity where it most counts. ]

Don't grumble at each other for too long, okay? I'll tell Josh, too.

Posted by

helpdesk_hero

You're welcome. And I'm not grumbling. I do deserve how he's reacting. I recognize that he fucked up. I just hope he can forgive me with time.

Posted by

fridgeflower

Of course he will.

Posted by

helpdesk_hero

I hope so. I really fucked up this time, Laurie. It can be hard, sometimes, to remember that Josh as I know him here lacks a lot of what made him the Josh I knew back home. The years. The aging. Back home he's actually one of the people I go to when I need comfort, and I trust him so much.

And I forget that he's damn capable on his own here too. Dude bought us a house. I owe him more than I did.

Posted by

fridgeflower

So give him a couple days and tell him that.

He has moments where his hurt gets the better of him, but he's not illogical or anything. He cares. He's not going to shut down completely.
EVER, if I can help it, but... He's not there now, at very least.

Posted by

helpdesk_hero

I promised him space, Laurie. Including not reaching out to harass him. This one is on him to allow me back close. Really bad. I don't intend to make it worse.