Clean-up. As if it's ever so easy as just saying we're moving on from the horrible idea that derives entirely from how much he loves you, Laurie. How much we both do. If I thought for a moment it'd get you back home, I'd consider it too.
So yes, we do hold it on ourselves to some degree.
I know there's really no way to convince you to do otherwise. I just don't want the desperation to define us or to lead us somewhere bad, and I don't want you to hurt and blame yourselves if it's just not possible.
I love you, too. I love you both so much. I promise that that's enough.
I promise I am doing a bit better on the taking care of my mental health and not being too crazed over the pain.
I'm glad. I love you too. You're one of my best friends, and I want you to have the chance at your life. Your happiest life. Know I will find any way I can to support it.
I hope so. I really fucked up this time, Laurie. It can be hard, sometimes, to remember that Josh as I know him here lacks a lot of what made him the Josh I knew back home. The years. The aging. Back home he's actually one of the people I go to when I need comfort, and I trust him so much.
And I forget that he's damn capable on his own here too. Dude bought us a house. I owe him more than I did.
He has moments where his hurt gets the better of him, but he's not illogical or anything. He cares. He's not going to shut down completely. EVER, if I can help it, but... He's not there now, at very least.
I promised him space, Laurie. Including not reaching out to harass him. This one is on him to allow me back close. Really bad. I don't intend to make it worse.
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I mean, Josh is
It's not on you two. I want you to know that, too.
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So yes, we do hold it on ourselves to some degree.
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I love you, too. I love you both so much. I promise that that's enough.
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I'm glad. I love you too. You're one of my best friends, and I want you to have the chance at your life. Your happiest life. Know I will find any way I can to support it.
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[ That's all very... therapy-esque, and she's worried that it's more rote than anything. Not that she doubts his sincerity where it most counts. ]
Don't grumble at each other for too long, okay? I'll tell Josh, too.
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And I forget that he's damn capable on his own here too. Dude bought us a house. I owe him more than I did.
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He has moments where his hurt gets the better of him, but he's not illogical or anything. He cares. He's not going to shut down completely.
EVER, if I can help it, but... He's not there now, at very least.
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