I hope so. I really fucked up this time, Laurie. It can be hard, sometimes, to remember that Josh as I know him here lacks a lot of what made him the Josh I knew back home. The years. The aging. Back home he's actually one of the people I go to when I need comfort, and I trust him so much.
And I forget that he's damn capable on his own here too. Dude bought us a house. I owe him more than I did.
He has moments where his hurt gets the better of him, but he's not illogical or anything. He cares. He's not going to shut down completely. EVER, if I can help it, but... He's not there now, at very least.
I promised him space, Laurie. Including not reaching out to harass him. This one is on him to allow me back close. Really bad. I don't intend to make it worse.
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And I forget that he's damn capable on his own here too. Dude bought us a house. I owe him more than I did.
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He has moments where his hurt gets the better of him, but he's not illogical or anything. He cares. He's not going to shut down completely.
EVER, if I can help it, but... He's not there now, at very least.
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