[Yes, Josh isn't wrong on that one front, and David doesn't even try and protest it.]
I am being honest. I'm honest that I love him. That I want to be with him. That doesn't change how... How much it hurts to see Tommy here. A potential love that I've hurt so much. I was going to hurt someone, but I didn't know how to have it be the one that is right for my heart as it is rather than the one that is... is who I'd want above all others if I wasn't me as I am now.
[He's changed. Is that so wrong?]
I'm still scared he'll leave me in the end. Balthier. That he'll hold this against me, or he'll disappear like happens in these worlds. That fear lingers. I'm trying... I'm trying to take the lessons you and Laurie tried to teach me after Damian to heart. To not refuse to live my life.
That doesn't mean I don't want my friend back. Tommy meant so much to me as a friend. And now I feel like I don't have a right to him or that team.
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26/6/22 02:33 (UTC)I am being honest. I'm honest that I love him. That I want to be with him. That doesn't change how... How much it hurts to see Tommy here. A potential love that I've hurt so much. I was going to hurt someone, but I didn't know how to have it be the one that is right for my heart as it is rather than the one that is... is who I'd want above all others if I wasn't me as I am now.
[He's changed. Is that so wrong?]
I'm still scared he'll leave me in the end. Balthier. That he'll hold this against me, or he'll disappear like happens in these worlds. That fear lingers. I'm trying... I'm trying to take the lessons you and Laurie tried to teach me after Damian to heart. To not refuse to live my life.
That doesn't mean I don't want my friend back. Tommy meant so much to me as a friend. And now I feel like I don't have a right to him or that team.