Okay, so...

[ he drums his hands on the desk, stalling for time. ]

I asked you if you talked to them about this and you gave me a whole lotta "no" and reasons for the no. Like... if you've got feelings for both of them, then it's worth having a conversation with them about whether that can work. It's not like you don't have alternate universe proof that polyamory works.

If not, then okay, you made your choice.